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Monday, December 31, 2018

Consciousness and Dancing Between Happy and Disappointment

Paraphrasing  Esther Hicks and Abraham, all that plays out in the physical realm comes out of the non physical realm as Contrast.

Add in your emotions and those sensations will determine how you relate to the Contrast. We can feel many things emotionally in reaction. Happiness and Disappointment can be the duality we experience to Contrast.  Conflict can follow. The questions become how we navigate through our own creativity of being. That is the journey of a soul.

Then there is Freedom.

Consciousness includes both the non physical and physical realms. The place we connect to our sense of Freedom is in our essence as Consciousness. Our sense of connection, free of our human limits of circumstance and agendas and how we feel about them.That is the essence of no boundaries, no form. The physical allows us to be free to define oneself. Contrast is present everywhere in the physical realm as we look to create freedom while in form. 

It is what all of us want. Everyone I have ever has a client or friend or talked with in general is taken with the idea of freedom. We tend to associate Freedom with physical freedom when it is really state of mind, state of being that is being discussed. We want to be free to think and do as we want. To not work or do things that we don't like to do. To be free of burden and responsibility and obligation. We think this will make us happy. We feel disappointment when we don't get what we think we want in the way we think we want it. .

Happy is freedom to us in form. The freedom to be happy. It is a state of being, not just mind. But it is hard when the body is in distress to remember this. If it is mind then it is subject to our feelings and how we think about our feelings and subject to our stories of being, our issues, our concerns, our dilemmas our bodies.

In this country we tie our sense of Happy to Freedom often. Freedom of choice in what we do and feel is really about that there is nothing, no thing determining our course of action except us. Self reliant, independent. Sounds good but it can be taken too far to a point of exclusion and supports the disillusion of separateness.

America became the promised land for religious freedom and those oppressed in being and continues to represent this today to the world. Or it did till the last election which freed up past held resentments of losses of freedoms long suppressed. And now, people fighting for their freedoms on each side of a border? Some dictating a border of fear so they can feel free and not feel taken for granted and used. How silly we can be in our illusion/disillusion of exclusion.

My sense is that between Happy and Disappointment is Tolerance. This is one key to dealing with the Contrast. Tolerance is the polarity between the duality. Other cultures do Happy easier as they are not so invested in being separate but part of the whole working together. Outside controlling environments offer rich fodder in Contrast. How we feel and think when dealing with constraints are active as creativity of mindful being. Think Nelson Mandala, The Dalai Lama, Senator John McCain.

What we connected with in groups this last week was how Disappointment is an active pervasive energy in our embodiment. Happy and Disappointment are connected at the heart serving as the measure of duality of being in this physical realm of Contrast.

At times we like to hide truths from ourselves when we come off as less than. We can get very creative here. Early trainings in being human frequently are lessons in limits. Yes, the physical form comes with capacities never explored in many. And then some make careers out of developing the human range of physical effort and expression.

Happy and Disappointment can also be a way we use on one another as control.

We can call it love, and protection but it is not. We even learn the lesson so well  we learn to use it as control on ourselves. We all know what disappointment feels like and we don't like how it feels. And, when it is tied into our sense of love it is really tied up. We need training in how one may experience disappointment. It is not a reason to hold back our love or negate feeling happy.

We will do whatever we can, maintain any story in order to not feel disappointment that others may hold us in or to feel our own disappointment. If we call it something else or resist or deny or avoid it goes deep. And, it builds in resonance attracting more to you. Just like anything else we encode this way.

It was deep, very deep in the human spectrum as we explored it and playing out in all kinds of rule sets and realities. I was able to recognize how I have danced with disappointment and how it is sitting with me, to the degree available to me in the moment. It is probably an iceberg in nature. So I have it on slow melt. In recognizing it as real as such allowed me to start to interact with it in new ways of release. Yes, a sense of release as there was no need to contain what I now knew was present.

There is nothing wrong with disappointment. It is as helpful as happy. It makes me appreciate happy. I appreciate the difference. It is okay in feeling disappointment. It is like happy, only part of a state of being that includes both.

They are the human references of physical contrast: Happy, Tolerance, Disappointment. Together they encompass our human experience of Freedom.  At core we are all free to enjoy our soul's dance.

Welcome to Consciousness in human form. Wave a fond farewell to 2018 and look forward to 2019.

Happy New Year!

Janet Barrett
Life in the Beyond/Journeys Into Enlightenment 

Monday, December 24, 2018

Consciousness and Happy Holidays!

I want to wish everyone Happy Holidays no matter what they may be, no matter where you may be. Maybe you have no reason to have a holiday. Does not matter.

What we all wish for is good tidings, good cheer.

In the winters of our discontents we remember that we can also enjoy winters filled with contentment. We can enjoy the snow and elements we associate with winter. Especially if we are prepared. We can enjoy old or new traditions.

And, if you are not into polar weather, you can enjoy an interior state of the sun is shining and palm trees swaying. You can smell the tropical delights of fruit and fauna, if only in mind.

What I wish for you is courage and solace from a developing self loathing. I listen to others and observe their actions and wonder about how they reconcile taking their positions and resulting conversations and actions.

This is nothing new in societies. But it has a certain flavor in this modern era.  Drugs, sex, rock and roll are ageless coping mechanisms.

My sense is that one's agenda being pushed is inflicting on those who serve all of us the burden of loathing and self loathing. Having to say no when one usually says yes. Having to stand face to face with another and confess one's country's momentary or one's own lack of care take a certain kind of courage. Having to compromise on inner principles that have never been questioned just presumed. When a country's identity is questioned.

Having to admit where one  has convinced themselves in not taking right action in order to survive or succeed. Where one is putting oneself over another as entitlement. None of these are new behaviors. They are ageless patterns of interactions.

Life is an eternal soup of feelings, thoughts, actions, experiences. Some we like, some we question, some we regret, some we enjoy. Some pull us apart and cause one to question being alive. Some take our choice away. They are eternal.

We are human life sharing life with other living creatures and materials on a very small pale blue dot in the cosmos.

We are powerful in our ability to not notice, to deny, to resist the big picture, connections in being. We can deny all we want about a subject and then the child dies. What do we do, what can we say? We can deny that actions have consequences whether you build in a flood zone or strip the land to an industry and there is nothing left. When agendas separate parents and children due to someone else's projected and presumed fears. We can resist the acceptance that we can say anything and not mean it.

What we appreciate is when actions have consequences that one can directly connect associate together. Unfortunately time and space can take time and space in human reality. Ancient people and societies observed over generations the interactions of the heavens and earth to come to conclusions that we only now can verify with technologies and our ability to play with time and space.

There is nothing more precious than our small pale tiny blue dot. Except the smile of a baby in harmony with the sheer zest of being that is within each of us.  No matter your concepts of  Self I lift my glass of cheer to you and me.

Happy Holidays to you and yours as you go about in your life. I raise a cup of fine cheer and wish you good tidings! I wish life's challenges to bring you together with what is important to you and the values of appreciation, compassion, respect, and kindness. To be able to recognize them when they are present and to be aware when they are not. For it is when we share in those that we then have common ground to stand upon as we or a few make life choices for all of us.

Happy Holidays to All!

Janet Barrett
Life in the Beyond/ Journeys Into Enlightenment

Monday, December 17, 2018

Consciousness and How You Play the Cards Dealt

A few nights ago I was playing Solitaire on my ipad before going to bed. I will admit I do this most every night in utilizing the screen’s yellow night light to relax my eyes and brain. Or that is my convenient excuse provided by my helpful neuro ophthalmologist. She gets paid a lot to know these things.

I have played Solitaire for years. I tend to win 80 to 90% of the time these days. It used to be more 70-80 % of the time when I cared and was invested in outcomes and winning and competition and such.

I think of my dad when I play. Dad was 92 when he passed three years ago. In the last 5 years of his life I would travel from Portland OR to San Diego, CA to see him two, three or four times a year. He was then losing his short term memory and he and I would play Solitaire. The cards were good for dexterity and memory. 

Consider the brain skills in playing Solitaire you need to use: All those alternating red/black cards in descending numerical order and the suits in their separate color piles in ascending order. My dad never had time or patience to sit and play cards during his life but he would play Solitaire with me as it was a way for us to be together in time.

We both knew that we were filling time with being together and nothing more. Just being together in ways we had not shared during his busy life and mine.

And playing with him, this style of interaction of him figuring out what cards and where to play them was a great lesson for me about letting go and shifting gears about time and space and experiencing my emotions of all kinds. In just being present with my dad. 

I let go of the dynamics of win/lose and playing with and against the odds and against myself. It all became about how you play the game as a way of connection and actions that filled time to fill time in moments of comfort as life winded down. It was not about doing. It was about being.

It filled that time with love, humor and the pain of watching an incredible man lose his grip on his story of reality and what his life had been about. The issues and emotions that had formed his life. It was about when we would stop and hold hands. To watch the intelligent, crafty, funny, Rube Goldberg thinker manifest and then decline. And to be there for the child of the Great Depression of the 1920’s and 30's and subsequent hard life who was still present. Sharp as a tack in conversations and so very funny in wit and awareness up to the very end when all else was failing.

He was aware enough to know what was going on and feel the difference from the past. He would look at me as I gently suggest he look again at the cards and eventually point the correct card position for placement if needed. With the increasing different kinds of short term memory loss he was truly in the moment as he could not remember what he had eaten 15 minutes earlier. And when he was losing his long term memory of timed events of the past he still knew me to the very end.

All of this is present when late at night I am unwinding at the ipad. We were using one at his end to play Solitaire when the card handling became too much.

I still play winning hands regularly. If I find myself losing more than a couple of times in a row I quit playing as I know I am out of sync. 

Something remarkable happened a few nights ago. I was doing my regular thing enjoying Solitaire. I told myself only another few deals as it would be good to go to bed. Since it takes me a minute and half thereabouts to play a deal so another five minutes wouldn’t hurt. Those of you who also play Solitaire at night know from where I speak.

I became aware that I was winning. And I certainly had an element of disbelief while in the moment. In playing I will use the hints when I can feel I am not tracking as well as I might. I pick random deals always. I delight to just play it out and see where me and the machine go. 

I kept winning. Eventually out of 50 games I lost 2 or 3. In the probably altered state that I was in, that is the best I can say. For it was now an hour and half later than late for me to pee and go to bed.

In the big scheme of things what happened was not going to mean anything except to me. My husband would not have appreciated me waking him up for share my experience with. I am not going to Vegas to play the cards or machines, to test myself and the House. I would just enjoy the moment of something different, of wonder, that was present. 

It will fall into the realm of folklore and myth to be shared by appreciative audiences. For that audience will be appreciating the possibilities in life when you are not attached, not concerned with outcome only the state of potential, that Fuzzy Photons Playground that is real within each of us as Consciousness. I have friends who have and continue to demonstrate the same dynamic in their lives.

As Self we will question till the cows come home. Magical moments filled with fantastical actions can happen all the time to each of us when we realize what is possible in being human.

And that moment will linger in my lifetime for me to call upon when I need it. It will cause me to smile in myself at myself as I hear God laughing about what I notice about life. It will only be forgotten when it no longer serves.

I will always remember my dad’s impish smile, his soul in his eyes, crack wit and dried, cracked hands, sharing his favorite singers in the ear buds. The rest only adds window dressing.

Janet Barrett
Life in the Beyond/Journeys Into Enlightenment

Monday, December 10, 2018

Consciousness Evolves into Journeys Into Enlightenment with Janet

My friend Joan Newcomb and I have been presenting Conscious Conversations with Joan and Janet, most recently on the CTR Network for the last few years. We have gone many places with connecting with the energies around us in that time. We centered in our awareness as Consciousness and how it applied in daily life to create a more enriched sense of Self in being. We kept it timely reading and tracking what we were noticing energetically in our inner and outer worlds.

We met many along the way who were also exploring this new way of engaging life, free of dogmas and traditions that limited and defined who we were in certain patterns that were not always a good fit. We had a great run and you can continue to listen to our podcast.

Thank you to all of you who supported us by listening and enriching the field of being present and the morphic field of the show itself. It is free now out among the stars to be enjoyed. 

Starting January 15, 2019 I am releasing my new adventure. I will presenting a podcast Journeys Into Enlightenment with Janet. It will be an every two week episode about the intersections of Consciousness and Self. I will feature a friend who will join me in Heart Centered Awareness and share about the myriad and different aspects of being.

Like with CCJJ my intention is to create in this space a container for others to indulge in. What you found in that container and will find again here with me is Heart Centered Awareness.We were the only radio show to offer that. Lots of great work out on the airwaves and we intentionally set ourselves differently.

If you knew what you were feeling you felt it and the potential for change in the moment. If you were new to the idea you felt it and just didn't know what you were feeling probably. And no matter what you called it, God, Source, Universe, Cabbage it was real. Every guest who joined us on the air felt it.

In the spectrum of awareness in Being we are all at different places and sensory abilities.

Consciousness is at the core of All. Every rock, wave, finger, bush, gas, you name it. It is the core of human reality. As humans experiencing life we feel, resonate in certain ranges of vibrations that are perhaps different levels of awareness from other matter, other essences, other energies. But all, fall within the core of Consciousness.

I look to celebrate all of this in my new podcast. Once again each episode will start with accessing HCA and what comes out of this space with my friend of the episode. And this time the focus will be perhaps more on the timeless quality of Being and not so much on the chaotic nature that Self can entertain. We will pull from our different histories the wisdoms of the past and appreciate them in the present.

You will enjoy something to read along, something to entertain your ears and eyes, some great music and conversation to access in Heart Centered Awareness. All opening us up to new interpretations of thought and emotional resonances. Free of judgment, you will experience rest, the stillness, laughter, the profound, the delight in being in a community of individuals sharing in this collective dynamic we call Consciousness.

I am busy the next few weeks getting this all into place with some wonderful friends to help me.

I will keep you posted. If you know of someone who would enjoy joining me as friend exploring life please send them to my email address are nice and not always important. It is in the appreciation and quality of life being expressed.

Janet Barrett
Life in the Beyond/Journeys Into Enlightenment 

Monday, December 3, 2018

Consciousness and Teaching us to Delight in Simple Things

Teach us to delight in simple things.
Rudyard Kipling

This quote on my calendar this morning caught my eye. It brought to mind the last couple of weeks. There has been so much energy flinging itself around and in our lives literally under our feet.

A friend was caught in the fire zone of the Camp fire in Northern California. Along with her roommate, their two dogs and her laptop they ran for their lives. Everything else, her possessions, her life went up into creating a charred and forever changed reality for her. My sense is that her recovery in being well will take some time.

Another friend had his reality split in an earthquake in Alaska earlier this week. We have not yet heard from him but we know no one is reported dead. His computer is silent and his phone emits a busy signal. My sense is that he is fine and I know he is helping and holding his neighbors as that is the kind of man he is.

When we are stripped down to our essence and remove the emotional anchors, life is full of possibilities. Navigating the emotional state of loss can feel devastating and new anchors in reality have to take place. Attachment to what we have made our lives and our self identity to be about anchors us no matter what that life might be about or enjoyed, envied or resented.

Many of us hold as part of our self identity as the who gives help to others, lends a hand. It can be hard to shift from that to the other side of the equation which is to be the one receiving help. That is a big reality shift at times.

In the hoopla of our days that life holds us in we experience an every growing field of stuff that defines us. We are full of things. We can get lost under the weight and distraction of glitz, glamour and energy of more is good, built in obsolesce is even better. How many televisions, phones, devices have become essential these days?

Just how many rooms to fill with stuff to points of excess are really important? I am not saying you have to spend your money the way I think you do. Yours is not my life. You have the freedom to define what is important to you.

What is it you take with you when you have no time to take anyone thing and much less a bag of things?

Access Heart Centered Awareness as you sit on your working toilet. Give thanks for the cold rim and the paper to wipe your butt and start counting. Count your blessings and start with the simple things like life, love, compassion and others to share in life in easy and challenging ways.Then be grateful for the ease of communicating.  The stuff is the clutter.

And in my world of synchronicity I just received this link from a friend.

Janet Barrett
Life in the Beyond/Journeys Into Enlightenment