Hello All,
This week you can join us at play at our Tuesday evening play group of Conscious Conversations with Janet. We access heart centered awareness and allow for our internal dialogues to verbalize. We throw in potential and allow for wonder to happen. Open to all who are looking for clarity in their lives. 7-9pm. Or you can join us in play if you have Matrix Energetics training on Thursday afternoon 1-3pm. Please RSVP for either if you can, and last minute is always welcomed.
Emotions are still dancing around coming up from the deep. Emotions are the flavors and colorations of life that form our biases and subsequent experiences so they are vital. Emotional turmoil is both exciting and challenging at times. What is especially great is now we have ways of dealing with emotions that are useful to changing the stuckness that often binds us up. Consciousness technologies like EFT and ME and others allow for new relationships to these often pesky things.
In group we played this time with how we relate to our siblings and the stuck emotional resonances that might be active. A lot of sister/sister this time. (the week before it was daughter/mother) You throw in older/younger, competition, mom or dad liked you better, i do this, you do that, etc., etc., and you can get a lot of juicy suppressed energies.
Dynamics and quantum entanglement being what they are it doesn't matter if you didn't have a sister or if you aren't female. You tracked these energies when you were young. Maybe at your current age it is wife and her female contacts. Could have been your aunt and mother, mother and her mother, mother and her mother-in-law. They are flavoring how you hold feminine energies in your field. Women would seem to be different from men in tonal and vibrations levels. We deal with things differently. But we are full of each influences. Just all part of the spectrum to me.
We were able to clear much. Holding in conscious awareness our rapport with each other and feeling the shifts energetically as these life long patterns talk with us is always so rewarding. There is no reason to be stuck or feel stuck in old limiting relationships when you use awareness well. It is just a matter of playing with the patterns within the patterns at times, in a different reality set. If it is just story, just issue, just some thing then the awareness that it is just information following in resonances and patterns is an easy next step. And, we can then maybe not feel we can change circumstances but we can certainly relate to our experiences differently.
What would it be like to have a different sense of yourself in relation to your sister? Or brother? Or Mother? Or Father? Drop into heart centered awareness, out of your thinking, rationalizing, reasoning, validating mind. Go beyond your emotional heart sense, further into the field of Unified Consciousness and observe your emotional terrain. Allow for the information to be observed from the new perspective and see what is present. The field is full of potential as it is not attached to outcome. You are.
Reality is illusion based. If you allow for the information to express itself free of your limiting concepts of what is, shift can happen. Patterns can change. And you are freer to enjoy your emotions, whatever they may be. Feeling something is not the issue. We all feel stuff. What you do with the feeling is key.
Janet Barrett blogs about using consciousness technologies to play with our realities and enjoy our many journeys into enlightenment. Also find news of events, workshops and classes.
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
Monday, August 24, 2015
Fuzzy Photons Update/ Home Schooled
Hello Out There!
Please RSVP if you will be joining me for Conscious Conversations with Janet Tuesday evening 7-9pm. Our conversations come from within heart centered awareness and we go deep! We have really been enjoying the fun. For those new to playing as Consciousness and in the field of potential stuff is happening. For those of you trained in Matrix Energetics you can come play then or on Thursday afternoon 1-3pm. Both are great opportunities if you are wanting a shift in your awareness about some area in your life.
We have all been "home schooled" in our emotional terrains. A friend on this mailing list sent the below to me. Lighthearted it may be i thought it provides an excellent way in re-framing statements and emotions that are lingering from vioices we have heard in the past. I remember hearing them or similar statements. I don't have children to repeat them to but i can imagine at times i might have said such things. And they may not have sounded funny or filled us with emotional warm and fuzzies if spoken menacingly.
We have been noticing in group and elsewhere how emotional energies have been up and out lately and this really struck me as a fun way to look at the old. We are playing with Consciousness here. Let's see about taking the blame and judgment out of what is ringing in our interior spaces often compartmentalized away. Now that we are adults utilizing new perspectives, let's re-encode the voices that are still perhaps locked away.
Access your sense of heart centered awareness, the field of Unified Consciousness and see what you become aware of that will dance to a different tune. Take them one at a time and see what you notice. If you were "home schooled" a bit differently in your youth.....
Love,
janet
1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE .
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside, I just finished cleaning."
2. My mother taught me RELIGION.
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet."
3. My father taught me about TIME TRAVEL.
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"
4. My father taught me LOGIC.
"Because I said so, that's why."
5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC.
"If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."
6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT.
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."
7. My father taught me IRONY.
"Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."
8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS .
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper."
9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM.
"Just you look at that dirt on the back of your neck?"
10. My mother taught me about STAMINA.
"You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."
11. My mother taught me about WEATHER.
"This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."
12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY.
"If I told you once, I've told you a million times, don't exaggerate!"
13. My father taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE.
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out..."
14. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION .
"Stop acting like your father!"
15. My mother taught me about ENVY.
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."
16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION.
"Just wait until we get home."
17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING.
"You are going to get it from your father when he gets home!"
18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE.
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to get stuck that way."
19. My mother taught me ESP.
"Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"
20. My father taught me HUMOUR.
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."
21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT .
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."
22. My mother taught me GENETICS.
"You're just like your father."
23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS.
"Shut that door behind you, do you think you were born in a barn?"
24. My mother taught me WISDOM.
"When you get to be my age, you'll understand. “
25. My father taught me about JUSTICE.
"One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!"
Please RSVP if you will be joining me for Conscious Conversations with Janet Tuesday evening 7-9pm. Our conversations come from within heart centered awareness and we go deep! We have really been enjoying the fun. For those new to playing as Consciousness and in the field of potential stuff is happening. For those of you trained in Matrix Energetics you can come play then or on Thursday afternoon 1-3pm. Both are great opportunities if you are wanting a shift in your awareness about some area in your life.
We have all been "home schooled" in our emotional terrains. A friend on this mailing list sent the below to me. Lighthearted it may be i thought it provides an excellent way in re-framing statements and emotions that are lingering from vioices we have heard in the past. I remember hearing them or similar statements. I don't have children to repeat them to but i can imagine at times i might have said such things. And they may not have sounded funny or filled us with emotional warm and fuzzies if spoken menacingly.
We have been noticing in group and elsewhere how emotional energies have been up and out lately and this really struck me as a fun way to look at the old. We are playing with Consciousness here. Let's see about taking the blame and judgment out of what is ringing in our interior spaces often compartmentalized away. Now that we are adults utilizing new perspectives, let's re-encode the voices that are still perhaps locked away.
Access your sense of heart centered awareness, the field of Unified Consciousness and see what you become aware of that will dance to a different tune. Take them one at a time and see what you notice. If you were "home schooled" a bit differently in your youth.....
Love,
janet
1. My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE .
"If you're going to kill each other, do it outside, I just finished cleaning."
2. My mother taught me RELIGION.
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet."
3. My father taught me about TIME TRAVEL.
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"
4. My father taught me LOGIC.
"Because I said so, that's why."
5. My mother taught me MORE LOGIC.
"If you fall out of that swing and break your neck, you're not going to the store with me."
6. My mother taught me FORESIGHT.
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."
7. My father taught me IRONY.
"Keep crying, and I'll give you something to cry about."
8. My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS .
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper."
9. My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM.
"Just you look at that dirt on the back of your neck?"
10. My mother taught me about STAMINA.
"You'll sit there until all that spinach is gone."
11. My mother taught me about WEATHER.
"This room of yours looks as if a tornado went through it."
12. My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY.
"If I told you once, I've told you a million times, don't exaggerate!"
13. My father taught me the CIRCLE OF LIFE.
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out..."
14. My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION .
"Stop acting like your father!"
15. My mother taught me about ENVY.
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do."
16. My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION.
"Just wait until we get home."
17. My mother taught me about RECEIVING.
"You are going to get it from your father when he gets home!"
18. My mother taught me MEDICAL SCIENCE.
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they are going to get stuck that way."
19. My mother taught me ESP.
"Put your sweater on; don't you think I know when you are cold?"
20. My father taught me HUMOUR.
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."
21. My mother taught me HOW TO BECOME AN ADULT .
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up."
22. My mother taught me GENETICS.
"You're just like your father."
23. My mother taught me about my ROOTS.
"Shut that door behind you, do you think you were born in a barn?"
24. My mother taught me WISDOM.
"When you get to be my age, you'll understand. “
25. My father taught me about JUSTICE.
"One day you'll have kids, and I hope they turn out just like you!"
Monday, August 10, 2015
Fuzzy Photons Update/A state of Hold?
Hello Out There,
Please RSVP if you will be joining our Tuesday evening 7-9pm Fuzzy Photons in Conscious
Conversations with Janet. This group is all about being in heart centered awareness. It is open to all fascinated by life. Or please RSVP if you will be joining our Matrix Energetics play group Thursday afternoon 1-3pm which is open to only those who have attended a ME seminar.
I am in the state of Oregon. I am sitting here typing while on hold for the last ten minutes. The elaborateness of the automated phone system is not too reassuring after all. There is no personal contact. I have no way to get ahold of who I need to talk with. I was forwarded to this place by a person in the system who was in the state of Missouri, USA. A nice person who wanted to help and sent me into oblivion. I have no idea where I am. The weak monotone Musak playing is not entertaining or reassuring.
Considering that I am on hold with the long distance service of AT&T I think it is cosmically
funny.This service, under the banner of AT&T is apparently not AT&T and requires a call to disconnect.I decide to hang up and call and enter the system again. Somehow my answers to the automated system connected me in a new way, a new state. Now I manage to talk with a real person who is in the state of Texas,USA where she says she knows lots of stuff and that I am automatically dropped from the long distance service that is no longer AT&T. So I can hang up knowing that all is well.
Differences in the state of Missouri and Texas would not seem much. It is in the people inhabiting them where it gets tricky. Different levels of perception and knowledge of how their system works and all the different components.
This would seem to be a great metaphor about consciousness and our internal processes. We have a body, a mind, a connection to what we call some sense of Source, different levels found in the intelligence of the body, and all the ways we inhabit being. Miscommunication can be anywhere in our thinking and there can be limits of knowledge. Shifting to heart centered awareness and our knowing can bring different results.
Knowing is information that comes to us through the right brain that is free of form. Knowledge
is information coming through the left brain as systems designs. Both are important but knowing
is connected to heart centered awareness.
We get stuck all the time. We get put on hold and forgotten within ourselves. We hold awareness
in different areas of our field. Let's think about flow. Where you make an internal call for information and it shows up in some way. When we get stuck it is often as a result of information not flowing somewhere else.
So maybe take some time to access your sense of the field of Unified Consciousness and see what
lines of communication are working and not working. Where do you feel lack of or leaks in
awareness? Can you feel the limits in awareness in some way? Look at your issue and put it someplace. Now look around and see what catches your eye, your ear, some sense. Allow it to fascinate you and take your attention. Interact with it and just notice. Let it resolve in some way and let go. Know that all is well.
Love,
janet
Please RSVP if you will be joining our Tuesday evening 7-9pm Fuzzy Photons in Conscious
Conversations with Janet. This group is all about being in heart centered awareness. It is open to all fascinated by life. Or please RSVP if you will be joining our Matrix Energetics play group Thursday afternoon 1-3pm which is open to only those who have attended a ME seminar.
I am in the state of Oregon. I am sitting here typing while on hold for the last ten minutes. The elaborateness of the automated phone system is not too reassuring after all. There is no personal contact. I have no way to get ahold of who I need to talk with. I was forwarded to this place by a person in the system who was in the state of Missouri, USA. A nice person who wanted to help and sent me into oblivion. I have no idea where I am. The weak monotone Musak playing is not entertaining or reassuring.
Considering that I am on hold with the long distance service of AT&T I think it is cosmically
funny.This service, under the banner of AT&T is apparently not AT&T and requires a call to disconnect.I decide to hang up and call and enter the system again. Somehow my answers to the automated system connected me in a new way, a new state. Now I manage to talk with a real person who is in the state of Texas,USA where she says she knows lots of stuff and that I am automatically dropped from the long distance service that is no longer AT&T. So I can hang up knowing that all is well.
Differences in the state of Missouri and Texas would not seem much. It is in the people inhabiting them where it gets tricky. Different levels of perception and knowledge of how their system works and all the different components.
This would seem to be a great metaphor about consciousness and our internal processes. We have a body, a mind, a connection to what we call some sense of Source, different levels found in the intelligence of the body, and all the ways we inhabit being. Miscommunication can be anywhere in our thinking and there can be limits of knowledge. Shifting to heart centered awareness and our knowing can bring different results.
Knowing is information that comes to us through the right brain that is free of form. Knowledge
is information coming through the left brain as systems designs. Both are important but knowing
is connected to heart centered awareness.
We get stuck all the time. We get put on hold and forgotten within ourselves. We hold awareness
in different areas of our field. Let's think about flow. Where you make an internal call for information and it shows up in some way. When we get stuck it is often as a result of information not flowing somewhere else.
So maybe take some time to access your sense of the field of Unified Consciousness and see what
lines of communication are working and not working. Where do you feel lack of or leaks in
awareness? Can you feel the limits in awareness in some way? Look at your issue and put it someplace. Now look around and see what catches your eye, your ear, some sense. Allow it to fascinate you and take your attention. Interact with it and just notice. Let it resolve in some way and let go. Know that all is well.
Love,
janet
Tuesday, June 2, 2015
Fuzzy Photon Alert/Judging in Life defines that Life
Hello,
Fuzzy Photons notice: Please RSVP if you will be joining us to share in
heart centered connection to the field of Unified Consciousness. Great place to
play. Happening Tuesday evening 7-9pm here. Or for ME play group Thursday new
time for this week 2:30-4:30 pm
Lots of things happened last week. I bet in your life also. Moments of
awareness of the need for self care and quiet. Moments of intense emotional
reactions and response. Moments of awareness of power, shifting power and how we
each influence in our lives. Making choices for others and ourselves is not
always easy.
The more you occupy being present, life can take a different spin. It is
not the same thing over and over. Because using consciousness technologies means
being present in new ways. It is not just enough to be able to observe how you
are in your life coming up against the boundaries and judgments that entails. It
means being open to the potential that is available for shift in the patterns
that your life represents. We are each living embodiments of holographic
projections of consciousness. Richard Bartlett of Matrix Energetics would say
that all the time in seminars. It took me awhile to get what he meant. I had fun
in some altered states of reality where I felt and thought what he was talking
about. It wasn’t just words. When you get down to the nitty gritty of the
particles that make up life there is not a whole lot there that is solid in the
quantum realm. Consciousness would seem to be just some photons of light that
move around in patterns, waves of flow. Though, to our limited senses we seem
pretty solid.
What seems to keep us together in one sense are our judgments. Take the
judgments away and stuff starts to happen. It is a skill. We did this the other
night on our free conscious conference call and it was really remarkable.
Sitting with others in the field of unified consciousness one mentioned how her
judgments were getting in the way. I suggested we allow for the judgment to
separate out of the issue and you could feel it come out. And right now I can’t
track what it was all about. We did it with other issues that people were
silently contemplating. You could feel the shift into the deepening of sacred
space.
Sacred space is full of judgments that have no meaning, no attachment, no
connection. And you will find that they are no longer judgments then. Just
thoughts that can fall apart. Patterns are changing all the time but we fail to
see or notice or register the difference because we are locked into the judgment
part of the pattern. That is what holds it to be. Some thing. How many of us
hold on to our judgments even in the face of conflicting evidence? How many of
us are really attached to maintaining the old as it is safer in some way?
Being
willing to let go of our old judgments for new discernments is healthy mental
health in action. And we may find we have ease in some areas and not in others.
We each have a framework for what our lives are about. Some of us employ the
“Once I make up my mind nothing will change it because then I don’t have to
rethink this” way of living. It can make it challenging for the rest of us who
bump up against this. Mental and emotional health are as precious as physical
health. As we let go of the judgments of what life is for each of us even the
framework is subject to change. Which is a good thing. Some thing worth hanging
on to. Perhaps the only thing worth hanging on to.
Take a moment to use your skill sets and access the field of heart. Allow
yourself to play. Let an issue come up for you. If you were to release the
judgment what could happen? If you were to explore what information becomes
available to you what would that be like? If the whole issue was to just
disappear as water on a hot surface what would that be like? If something
totally unexpected was to become aware to you would you let it? Would you allow
yourself to feel good about what the contained information had to offer and
would you be okay to feel okay about it? What would that be like?
Love,
j
janetb@janetandbeyond.com
Monday, May 25, 2015
Fuzzy Photons Alert/ Well Being Amidst the Turbulence
Hello All,
Please RSVP if you will be joining us here for heart centered play Tuesday
evening 7-9pm or for ME play Thursday afternoon 1-3pm.
This week I am going to be attending two wonderful Matrix Energetics
seminars in the Seattle, WA area. It has been a year since I was there sitting
in a room filled with a group of such size exploring what it is to enjoy the
mysteries of mind and awareness. It is always fresh and vital no matter the
material, which I may be familiar with or not. It is the liveliness, vitality
and variety of individuals exploring being human that is the hook. Meeting old
friends and fellow explorers will be the delight. I hope you will join me
there.
What a beautiful week it has been here in Portland, Oregon. This is a very
special place. As is the place where you live. It is just different. Here, the
visuals of spring with its bright floral display and new green growth of grass
and bush are abundant and nourishing on so many levels. There is turmoil
elsewhere in the world and I can still find peace within. I can be dealing with
dementia in the family, have frustration with a medical system, and face hard
choices about loved ones and still hang onto that life is what you make it. My
realities and those I interact with are not always the same. Time and space mean
different things to different people. Sometimes others’ realities predominate.
But still I find myself able to hold to “okay” internally. That sense of well
being may recede or I may forget that in any one moment but in a moment it is
coming back. I find it supporting me as I go about daily life.
That wasn’t always the case. One thing that has become true for me is that
life is what you make it. Illness and its repercussions have dictated my life.
It reverberates long after the diseases have declined. I don’t need the disease
patterns as they were anymore. They only served to bring me to this point and
shape my being. They have served as anchor in consciousness, time and space. How
attached I am keeps shifting.
Consciousness technologies like the Yuen Method and to a greater degree
Matrix Energetics have allowed me a way to relax and feel more in control of my
life. There are no victims in this work or in the mind sets. Just individuals
experiencing life. Often from an overwhelmed space and limited viewpoints.
Individuals who have taken responsibility for others and all or let go of
personal responsibility. We are relationship based creatures. We are always
co-creating and often we do it from a fixed position. We assign ourselves roles
to play. My liking of people served my ability to feel for others and want to be
helpful. Or maybe it was the other way around or something in between. I much
better relate to these forces in my life today. I am much more in the “gift”
part of my awareness than the “wound” part of it. Wisdom is available.
Amidst the chaos of earthquake and war in far places and even here, life is
transcending, ending and beginning. Life is earth shattering and life ending at
times. Opportunities are created in every moment, and perhaps either not used or
deliberately decided for new choices in patterns of behavior.
Using ME’s great
awareness of the heart centered field of Unified Consciousness and it’s
relationship to potential has made all the difference in my world. It is an
updated version of old knowledge and knowing. It is something available to all
of us, not just the shaman or wizard. But maybe not valued or framed as the
shaman or wizard would. That is the nature of awareness. It is everywhere,
always. But, and here is the big “but” of all, not always recognized or engaged
by each of us. We have it within us if we allow for it. Awareness is available
to all of us whether we are conscious of it or not. We are all at different
places within the spectrum of awareness. Sometimes it is easier, safer, to act
powerless and allow others to dictate and make our choices and set our
boundaries. Some of us hold no awareness about much of anything. There is no
drive to look deeper, inward. Some times we find ourselves in circumstances
beyond our conscious control, making choices when there are no choices. And then
again, sometimes and some of us choose to play the game of life differently.
Neither right nor wrong it is always consciousness experiencing, consciousness
evolving.
Love,
janet
Fuzzy Photons 5/25/15 Misunderstandings Abound
Hello All,
Please RSVP if you would like to join in heart centered awareness this week
Tuesday 7-9pm. Or at our Matrix Energetics play group Thursday 1-3pm. Both are
rich opportunities to play in the field of the heart and experience community
with others who look to explore life.
Mercury is in retrograde. It does that four times a year. For those of you
who pay attention to astrology that means communication can be in uproar. For
those of you who don’t pay attention it doesn’t hurt to notice
our communications with self and others. Consciousness is organized on many
different levels of awareness and considerations. You don’t have to be conscious
of what is going on planetary, global or environmental levels to be aware that
your friend is not speaking to you and seems a bit miffed and you don’t know
why. You seem to be having issue with a contract for unknown reasons. We are all
being affected by mostly unconscious energies.
Someone says something. The listener hears what is said and yet can
misunderstand, misinterpret, and react. It happens because each of us is
oriented individually to what life is about. Language may be shared but the
understanding of our intention is not experienced. The joke intended is not
appreciated. The sincerity is missed. Stuff happens. No harm is intended but it
can be experienced. Unless something intercedes and sometimes even then harm is
felt.
Such is life. It happens all the times. History and fiction are filled with
misunderstandings. It is bound to happen. Lifetimes can be changed. Wars can
occur on all kinds of levels, families and clans hold grudges, and all because
miscommunication happened or values collided.
Language is one of our greatest gifts. The meaning of a single word can
cover a lot of ground. It also can lead to misunderstanding easily if we are not
paying attention. Out of context comments can create issue. People don’t always
speak their personal sense of truth, explain what they mean or are maybe not
feeling free to do so. They are polite, or nice or don’t feel comfortable
sharing. A simple comment can set up waves of reaction not intended or meant.
They can lead to actions that are not recognized until later years. What is flip
to someone is catastrophic to another and we never know. Assumptions can run
rampant. Reactions are automatic often. Responses are what we are looking for
when dealing with others and ourselves. Responses allow for contemplation in
between our thoughts. It gives us time to become aware of our triggers on both
sides. We are always co creating. Viewpoints can cross over and cascade into
each other and harm is felt.
All we can do is learn how to be honest with ourselves and one another. And
that can be the most wanted but seemingly the hardest thing to express due to
our feelings and desires. Desires to protect someone, something, ourselves. Our
own emotions can cloud, confuse, misdirect, and create mayhem. It is important
to know when we hurt each other intentionally or unintentionally. We need to
also learn to apologize if we have created an unwanted set up. We don’t want to
hurt. So why would we want to hurt others? But it can happen.
Use your skill sets and drop into heart space. Check out how your heart is
physically feeling. Check out the surrounding emotional terrain and then slip
into the core, essence of Unified Consciousness and play. Any of the physical
sense, or emotional terrain can be played with in your casual noticing. Let yourself relax into being okay. Feel the separation of
stuff into the wisp of "out there" and just relax some more.
Let someone come to
mind and notice what is present with them and you. If you keep open your
emotional heart sensor what do you notice? Something physical or emotional in
reaction? If you continue to just view, allow for awareness to be present and
what it has to offer you. Be appreciative to the other, grateful for what they
are sharing and then decide how you want to respond. If it is your issue act
accordingly. If it is theirs keep your heart open. Share from that space with
them, what is true to you. Allow yourself to feel the shift and let it go.
We are each responsible for how we show up and not responsible for how
others do. But we can make it easier for us to share life in ways that enrich
our experiences and sense of joy.
Love,
janet
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
Losing Memories 5/5/15
Hello
All,
Please RSVP if you will be joining us for our Fuzzy Photons play groups of heart space on Tuesday evening 7-9pm or ME play group Thursday afternoon 1-3pm. Any local to the Portland/Vancouver area is welcome.
In some societies people are living longer. But
they are not always at their best as they age. Technologies can keep us alive,
but not always present mentally. Daily life is full of considerations and
stress. We are building Morphic fields full of declining abilities and loss of
powers of reasoning. We are now old enough to forget. Our ability to feel and reason
are gifts of being. We can take them for granted. We can be
good at putting off till tomorrow and longer preventative measures that could
insure against poor tomorrows. And then sometimes you do all the right things
and stuff still happens. What we all need to be in is a state of
appreciation for the wonder that we each are right now.
I have been in San Diego for several days. My
husband and I have been dealing with my dad and brother and levels of cognitive
abilities and dementia. Been noticing how information can flow but not connect.
The heart can be willing, the head can be willing and yet connection is lost. It
can be so between my dad, his body and mind, my brother as caregiver and his
issues or the medical system of doctor and staff, staff and more staff, staff
between agencies that are all looking to work together. Departments filled with
people sympathizing, empathizing but no power ultimately flowing to conclusion.
Power that just disappears. Sort of like dementia in certain ways.
Dad has been losing his memory, mostly short
term but some long term. It can be about the simplest things. What stands out to
me is when I watched and observed my dad at age 91 dealing with a variety of
Solitaire, a card game. You might not like the game much or you might enjoy it.
What you might not notice though are all the steps in cognitive behavior it
requires to play the game. How many piles of cards, how many cards in each pile
and when to turn them face over, piles of cards that are about black and red
alternating in each pile and in placed in descending order. Then the row of
suits in red or black in ascending order. And you have your turnover deck of
every three cards at a time you rotate through playing. You have to be able to
notice each pile in reference to what is showing. You have to be sure to turn
over only the cards facing up and not any others as you move them around from
pile to pile. You can only move certain cards at certain times into forming new
piles. And much more. Each is an act separate from the other, in a sequence and
then perhaps no sequence. Any one or more thought can fail to connect. Then
sometimes connecting on and then off in the next minute.
I like Solitaire and used to be quite focused on
results and time and wins and loses. I used to win a lot and quite
psychic at the game. Playing with my dad the last couple of years it has become
more about the process and not about the winning. We don’t win as much now. We
share the experience and that is the win to me. it brings me peace to sit with
him at his level and let it be okay. I am better now at letting go of the mind
that used to be present and to be okay with the one now present.
Awareness, appreciation and patience were
experienced. In my world, I guess most things work well. Not so in my
brother or father’s realities of life. I observed the intersection of those
realities a lot. I noticed where their issues could be mine and were not and
where they might be in the future. I get to decide how I want to relate to
these patterns. How much energy to feed into thinking certain ways about things.
I was able to successfully challenge the norm at different times and other’s
expectations and sometimes not. For we co-create always. Such is life.
Consciousness is always present and presenting opportunities to challenge
itself. Detachment from any kind of expectation is helpful when the expectation
is limiting. It is so easy to buy into someone else’s reality. You have to catch
yourself if it is not your reality or one you want to hold as the only
truth.
People can get better. People can get worse. It
is not up to me. But if I notice places that invite me to be aware, perhaps, if
wanted, things can change in some way, beyond the expected.
Take time to drop in and notice what in your
world catches your eye. Allow it to break it down into all the thoughts that
have to happen to have a conclusion. Notice where something might be different
or could allow for a different outcome. There are only patterns. Play. Enjoy.
Appreciate.
Janet
Janet Barrett
Metaphorically Speaking - Intuitive Energy Release
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