Fuzzy Photons Alert/ Well Being Amidst the Turbulence

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Please RSVP if you will be joining us here for heart centered play Tuesday evening 7-9pm or for ME play Thursday afternoon 1-3pm.

This week I am going to be attending two wonderful Matrix Energetics seminars in the Seattle, WA area.  It has been a year since I was there sitting in a room filled with a group of such size exploring what it is to enjoy the mysteries of mind and awareness. It is always fresh and vital no matter the material, which I may be familiar with or not. It is the liveliness, vitality and variety of individuals exploring being human that is the hook. Meeting old friends and fellow explorers will be the delight. I hope you will join me there. 

What a beautiful week it has been here in Portland, Oregon. This is a very special place. As is the place where you live. It is just different. Here, the visuals of spring with its bright floral display and new green growth of grass and bush are abundant and nourishing on so many levels. There is turmoil elsewhere in the world and I can still find peace within. I can be dealing with dementia in the family, have frustration with a medical system, and face hard choices about loved ones and still hang onto that life is what you make it. My realities and those I interact with are not always the same. Time and space mean different things to different people. Sometimes others’ realities predominate. But still I find myself able to hold to “okay” internally. That sense of well being may recede or I may forget that in any one moment but in a moment it is coming back. I find it supporting me as I go about daily life. 

That wasn’t always the case. One thing that has become true for me is that life is what you make it. Illness and its repercussions have dictated my life. It reverberates long after the diseases have declined. I don’t need the disease patterns as they were anymore. They only served to bring me to this point and shape my being. They have served as anchor in consciousness, time and space. How attached I am keeps shifting. 

Consciousness technologies like the Yuen Method and to a greater degree Matrix Energetics have allowed me a way to relax and feel more in control of my life. There are no victims in this work or in the mind sets. Just individuals experiencing life. Often from an overwhelmed space and limited viewpoints. Individuals who have taken responsibility for others and all or let go of personal responsibility. We are relationship based creatures. We are always co-creating and often we do it from a fixed position. We assign ourselves roles to play. My liking of people served my ability to feel for others and want to be helpful. Or maybe it was the other way around or something in between. I much better relate to these forces in my life today. I am much more in the “gift” part of my awareness than the “wound” part of it. Wisdom is available.  

Amidst the chaos of earthquake and war in far places and even here, life is transcending, ending and beginning. Life is earth shattering and life ending at times. Opportunities are created in every moment, and perhaps either not used or deliberately decided for new choices in patterns of behavior. 

Using ME’s great awareness of the heart centered field of Unified Consciousness and it’s relationship to potential has made all the difference in my world. It is an updated version of old knowledge and knowing. It is something available to all of us, not just the shaman or wizard. But maybe not valued or framed as the shaman or wizard would. That is the nature of awareness. It is everywhere, always. But, and here is the big “but” of all, not always recognized or engaged by each of us. We have it within us if we allow for it. Awareness is available to all of us whether we are conscious of it or not. We are all at different places within the spectrum of awareness. Sometimes it is easier, safer, to act powerless and allow others to dictate and make our choices and set our boundaries. Some of us hold no awareness about much of anything. There is no drive to look deeper, inward. Some times we find ourselves in circumstances beyond our conscious control, making choices when there are no choices. And then again, sometimes and some of us choose to play the game of life differently. Neither right nor wrong it is always consciousness experiencing, consciousness evolving.

Love,

janet

Fuzzy Photons 5/25/15 Misunderstandings Abound

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Please RSVP if you would like to join in heart centered awareness this week Tuesday 7-9pm. Or at our Matrix Energetics play group Thursday 1-3pm. Both are rich opportunities to play in the field of the heart and experience community with others who look to explore life.

Mercury is in retrograde. It does that four times a year. For those of you who pay attention to astrology that means communication can be in uproar. For those of you who don’t pay attention it doesn’t hurt to notice our communications with self and others. Consciousness is organized on many different levels of awareness and considerations. You don’t have to be conscious of what is going on planetary, global or environmental levels to be aware that your friend is not speaking to you and seems a bit miffed and you don’t know why. You seem to be having issue with a contract for unknown reasons. We are all being affected by mostly unconscious energies.

Someone says something. The listener hears what is said and yet can misunderstand, misinterpret, and react. It happens because each of us is oriented individually to what life is about. Language may be shared but the understanding of our intention is not experienced. The joke intended is not appreciated. The sincerity is missed. Stuff happens. No harm is intended but it can be experienced. Unless something intercedes and sometimes even then harm is felt.

Such is life. It happens all the times. History and fiction are filled with misunderstandings. It is bound to happen. Lifetimes can be changed. Wars can occur on all kinds of levels, families and clans hold grudges, and all because miscommunication happened or values collided.

Language is one of our greatest gifts. The meaning of a single word can cover a lot of ground. It also can lead to misunderstanding easily if we are not paying attention. Out of context comments can create issue. People don’t always speak their personal sense of truth, explain what they mean or are maybe not feeling free to do so. They are polite, or nice or don’t feel comfortable sharing.  A simple comment can set up waves of reaction not intended or meant. They can lead to actions that are not recognized until later years. What is flip to someone is catastrophic to another and we never know. Assumptions can run rampant. Reactions are automatic often. Responses are what we are looking for when dealing with others and ourselves. Responses allow for contemplation in between our thoughts. It gives us time to become aware of our triggers on both sides. We are always co creating. Viewpoints can cross over and cascade into each other and harm is felt.

All we can do is learn how to be honest with ourselves and one another. And that can be the most wanted but seemingly the hardest thing to express due to our feelings and desires. Desires to protect someone, something, ourselves. Our own emotions can cloud, confuse, misdirect, and create mayhem. It is important to know when we hurt each other intentionally or unintentionally. We need to also learn to apologize if we have created an unwanted set up. We don’t want to hurt. So why would we want to hurt others? But it can happen.  

Use your skill sets and drop into heart space. Check out how your heart is physically feeling. Check out the surrounding emotional terrain and then slip into the core, essence of Unified Consciousness and play. Any of the physical sense, or emotional terrain can be played with in your casual noticing. Let yourself relax into being okay. Feel the separation of stuff into the wisp of "out there" and just relax some more. 

Let someone come to mind and notice what is present with them and you. If you keep open your emotional heart sensor what do you notice? Something physical or emotional in reaction? If you continue to just view, allow for awareness to be present and what it has to offer you. Be appreciative to the other, grateful for what they are sharing and then decide how you want to respond. If it is your issue act accordingly. If it is theirs keep your heart open. Share from that space with them, what is true to you. Allow yourself to feel the shift and let it go.

We are each responsible for how we show up and not responsible for how others do. But we can make it easier for us to share life in ways that enrich our experiences and sense of joy. 

Love,

janet

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Losing Memories 5/5/15

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Please RSVP if you will be joining us for our Fuzzy Photons play groups of heart space on Tuesday evening 7-9pm or ME play group Thursday afternoon 1-3pm. Any local to the Portland/Vancouver area is welcome. 

 

In some societies people are living longer. But they are not always at their best as they age. Technologies can keep us alive, but not always present mentally. Daily life is full of considerations and stress. We are building Morphic fields full of declining abilities and loss of powers of reasoning. We are now old enough to forget. Our ability to feel and reason are gifts of being. We can take them for granted. We can be good at putting off till tomorrow and longer preventative measures that could insure against poor tomorrows. And then sometimes you do all the right things and stuff still happens. What we all need to be in is a state of appreciation for the wonder that we each are right now.

 

I have been in San Diego for several days. My husband and I have been dealing with my dad and brother and levels of cognitive abilities and dementia. Been noticing how information can flow but not connect. The heart can be willing, the head can be willing and yet connection is lost. It can be so between my dad, his body and mind, my brother as caregiver and his issues or the medical system of doctor and staff, staff and more staff, staff between agencies that are all looking to work together. Departments filled with people sympathizing, empathizing but no power ultimately flowing to conclusion. Power that just disappears. Sort of like dementia in certain ways.

 

Dad has been losing his memory, mostly short term but some long term. It can be about the simplest things. What stands out to me is when I watched and observed my dad at age 91 dealing with a variety of Solitaire, a card game. You might not like the game much or you might enjoy it. What you might not notice though are all the steps in cognitive behavior it requires to play the game. How many piles of cards, how many cards in each pile and when to turn them face over, piles of cards that are about black and red alternating in each pile and in placed in descending order. Then the row of suits in red or black in ascending order. And you have your turnover deck of every three cards at a time you rotate through playing. You have to be able to notice each pile in reference to what is showing. You have to be sure to turn over only the cards facing up and not any others as you move them around from pile to pile. You can only move certain cards at certain times into forming new piles. And much more. Each is an act separate from the other, in a sequence and then perhaps no sequence. Any one or more thought can fail to connect. Then sometimes connecting on and then off in the next minute.

 

I like Solitaire and used to be quite focused on results and time and wins and loses. I used to win a lot and quite psychic at the game. Playing with my dad the last couple of years it has become more about the process and not about the winning. We don’t win as much now. We share the experience and that is the win to me. it brings me peace to sit with him at his level and let it be okay. I am better now at letting go of the mind that used to be present and to be okay with the one now present.

 

Awareness, appreciation and patience were experienced. In my world, I guess most things work well. Not so in my brother or father’s realities of life. I observed the intersection of those realities a lot. I noticed where their issues could be mine and were not and where they might be in the future. I get to decide how I want to relate to these patterns. How much energy to feed into thinking certain ways about things. I was able to successfully challenge the norm at different times and other’s expectations and sometimes not. For we co-create always. Such is life. Consciousness is always present and presenting opportunities to challenge itself. Detachment from any kind of expectation is helpful when the expectation is limiting. It is so easy to buy into someone else’s reality. You have to catch yourself if it is not your reality or one you want to hold as the only truth.

 

People can get better. People can get worse. It is not up to me. But if I notice places that invite me to be aware, perhaps, if wanted, things can change in some way, beyond the expected.

 

Take time to drop in and notice what in your world catches your eye. Allow it to break it down into all the thoughts that have to happen to have a conclusion. Notice where something might be different or could allow for a different outcome. There are only patterns. Play. Enjoy. Appreciate.

Love,
  Janet

Janet Barrett
  Metaphorically Speaking - Intuitive Energy Release

No groups until April 30 Thursday 1-3pm Portland Oregon

Hello,

 

I am leaving for San Diego in the morning. My blog this week has disappeared into the ethers. So I will just let you know that no groups until Thursday April 30 for our ME play group 1-3pm.

 

love,

j

Lily and You

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Please RSVP if you will be joining us for either our heart centered play space on Tuesday evening 7-9pm or our Matrix Energetics play group Thursday afternoon 1-3pm. 

This is Lily. Lily is 4 months old now. Each of us has a Lily in us. Inside of each of us is a pretty baby, no matter what we looked like or what we were told..

We are witnessing the  moment before choice is being made from a place of innocence. You can see it here. An imprint of experience has happened and she is going to respond. On her next breath her response can be of either to smile in joy or cry in alarm. Or to squiggle and notice something else. Her choice will come as a result of consciousness deciding how it will express itself in this current embodiment as her, of the personality of her genetic material and the setting of her perceptual biases and sensory mechanisms.

 She will respond quickly without regard to limits. Present is only a willingness to experience life. She is taking in information that her surrounding environment is providing that will develop her senses of who she is in the world.

 Right now she is loved. She is healthy. She is clean. Those are her advantages in how she is starting out in life. They are still present. Some of us don’t start this life with these advantages. And all of it can change in the blink of an eye. How her developing needs are being met is important and dependent on those around her until she is old enough to self direct and make her own choices.  At any point patterns will start or continue to play setting up experiences of one kind or another enriching what life is all about. There are no rights, no wrongs only discernment that sets up distinctions and lead to judgments and choices. 

What level of awareness is she holding and taking in about life around her? How will they define her? How is she tracking physical movement, mental reasoning, emotional capabilities, psychological, psychic and spiritual influences? Ever watch a baby and their delight in the unseen world? Reacting to things you can not see. Developing visual perceptions and acuity take hold and what they hear around them relays information. How does she respond to the mother and father influences? You are Lily. How much of who Lily will be is being projected onto her by someone bigger? If we hold victim energy in our fields as adults how much of that is coming from our Lily’s developing sense of perspective? her future choices will come from what she is experiencing from those around her who are not paying attention to her or in their own biases.

We all respond to babies in some way. From a neutral position we can notice that response. It will reflect our own sense of self as innocent and how precious it is. We never lose our innocence. We only gain experience that values it or degrades it. But what we are all witnessing here is life still held as wonder. It is in each of us. We now get to choose how we value or degrade it. How we relate to it. Some of us will feel her and then the pain of being an adult. Some of us will only see the light and feel separate from it. Some of us will do all we can to treasure and protect her. Some of us will see how precious the wonder is and infuse our wisdom to it. Wisdom is our educated innocence, free of the biases that created it.  

So take a moment or two. Drop into heart space or look at Lily and drop into heart space. Feel what you feel. Feel you as Lily. She holds the secret of the universes in her eyes and being. What is your choice? How do we help her to know grace? How do we teach her about the possibilities in her world and the world?

Maybe we just hold her and let her feel our beating heart. Let her know that she is never alone or unwanted. Let her know that every moment is all we have and is to be appreciated.

What would your inner Lily want you to know? 

Love,

janet

And thank you to Lily's grandmother for sending me her photograph. 

Moving in grace

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Please RSVP if you will be joining us for heart centered play Tuesday evening 7-9pm. This group dynamic is about joining others in sacred space, free of definitions of how you get there. There are many ways to get there, into the field of the heart. Use the one you know or learn a new way and drop in. It is all about creating the space within ourselves to know ourselves free of our thinking. Nothing is what it seems to be. No matter what you are facing and dealing with your life you can embrace it in new ways. How you feel is what motivates you. If you don’t know how you feel, have no clarity, or feel confused come join us. If you find yourself questioning all that you do and think come join us. If you are doing well in your world come and help others through your sense of all right, I am okay. It will make a difference.

 

Please RSVP if you will be joining us for Matrix Energetics play Thursday afternoon 1-3pm. Using your ME skill sets or beginner’s mind join us as we focus on sacred space from within the ME mindset.

 

Grace has a couple of meanings. One is about how one elegantly moves physically and it is also a sense of the Divine. For me it is consciousness giving pardon to itself as human. Not about the nature of forgiveness but about not judging or being judge in the first place. As humans concerned with life and survival we need to think in order to judge what is good for us. Making distinctions is important. But we need to be skillful at it. Use it wisely.

 

This last week was all about moving in grace. It showed and revealed itself in different ways. Groups were full of heart expanding moments. Some of us have serious life threatening issues we are tangled up with or are dealing with bi polar experiences of being in the family. We enjoyed vibrant life appreciation and being okay with what one found inside in the profound shared energies. It was humbling. Illness was radiating good health as sometimes life gets directed into what we don’t consciously want. We noticed the circumstances and motivators that were revealing themselves. Where the duality, polarity and scalar nature of energies about anything were focused. We added the potential found in sacred space and blessed it all.

 

Keeping out of judgment and neutral to what is within us is key. In group we found where fear can lie. Where fear is serving as protection from ourselves, for ourselves and acting as self sabotage. Embracing the fear allows for us to recognize the parts of ourselves that make us whole. Like anything it can be protective, neutralizing, empowering, debilitating. Just depends on how it is being experienced. Used well it gives us pause and time to reflect and act in new ways. Used poorly it can become its own thing empowered as an egotist. We are then no longer reacting to the fear of what but to the fear itself. It revealed itself in the grace. 

 

I also spent a lot of time with a friend helping her with a moving in sale all weekend. Here was a different sense of grace. Think Energizer Bunny. My friend is able to express energy physically without compromise. She radiates a glow of good health, a warm smile, with a vibrant appreciation of life. If you weren't paying attention you might think that she was a doer. She does get a lot of things done for sure. But what she is really able to do is access a flow of energy easily and effortlessly being externally demonstrated. By being she does. In that expression she gets things moved.

 

We all move in grace be it about physical or lack of judgment. We express it physically, mentally, emotionally, psychologically, psychically, spiritually and metaphorically. Grace is found in the smallest of moments and in the big ones. Some of us are aware of it, some of us take it for granted and some of us never know it. We can see it in others but not ourselves. Some of us value it, some of us have had it and hold it lost. We can limp along or be clumsy or vibrate at different levels. Consciousness experiences and chooses to evolve or stay the same. 

 

Take some time and access heart space. In warmth, support and willingness to allow for all that grace is, relax. Check in. Is you sense of life vibrant and full of possibilities? Or, is what is bothering you full of life and vibrant? Notice where you would like your energies to go and see what that would be like or feel like to move them around. How you hold yourself in awareness is important. How do you flow? Are you a Fred Astaire/Ginger Rodgers or Keystone Cop? 

Love,

janet

 

Your story, your voice

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Please RSVP if you will be attending any Fuzzy Photons play groups this week. We have our heart centered play group Tuesday evenings 7-9pm, open to all who would enjoy heart centered play no matter the training. Or if you are a Matrix Energetics student you can join us Thursday afternoon 1-3pm.

 

This last week the story came up. You know. Your story, the one you have encoded as “my story”. We may refer to it as “my story” but the energy is “my story”. And when we use consciousness technologies like Matrix Energetics you begin to realize that you are much more or maybe much less than “my story”. That taking the energy down to “my story” helps free us up to be involved in new stories of all kinds. The themes in our lives may stay the same but now variety can happen and new chapters can start to be written and maybe a new ending, a never ending. If you allow your story to reveal itself you can sense the infinite qualities. Never ending, just transitioning and transcending. In that way delightful new possibilities, chapters, start to be experienced.

 

We are storytellers. In oral and written mediums we express our connections to our sense of self and how we relate in the human experience and all that entails. When we are dead and not there to confirm or deny someone’s interpretation of our facts and fictions it can all become myth. Myths are filled with super natural beings and humans as heroes and victims. By the nature of the word our heroes are encoded in tragedy. That is when we need a hero. Tragedy averted, life triumphant. Life, at base, is about survival and death. Some of us may feel very distant from those two references or they can be in our faces daily. Our myths are coming from traditions and earlier stories that get set into place. The details and variety of possibilities start to disappear over the years. Sometimes the individuals get lost, sometimes they serve as the myth and the story gets fed. The myths of who we are and where we come from have a power of their own. Our myths can be cultural, global, personal. Our stories within the myths can be unique and get stronger by rote and repetition. Every time we voice the past with attachment the power builds or holds firm. Our stories can be about anything. We can be filled with many stories at one time. They can be in conflict with each other. That makes them more interesting.  

 

Our stories and myths that we inhabit don’t always have to be the same, continually playing out with the same outcome. Our use of consciousness technologies give us some power and wiggle room. Most of us go about our daily lives without the knowledge that we can challenge with success the past. Not in changing it but in how we relate to it and a different future. We can become our own heroes out of our tragedies. We don’t have to settle for the past or conform to the tradition or sameness.  There is nothing wrong with your story and it chapters and verse and myth you now encompass. It is bringing you what you want in some way. If you would like something different then maybe take another look at it. What would it be like to experience, in some way, something different about your story and stories?

 

Drop into heart space and play this week. Notice how you have your story bound up. Written or oral? Opera, tattered journal, Akashic record, encyclopedia, locked diary, engraved in cement. Any will offer you a way to inscribe the future. Is it a bestseller? Private printing, or out of print? Theme song? Whether it is written in invisible ink, blood or with a clear hand, your stories are a blend of illusion, discernment, and consciousness exploring what it means to be alive. Enjoy it all. See if you are able to view yourself as hero or if it is victim in your story, to your story. Are you living an epic generational saga playing out? Does it make a difference when you don’t feel the pressure of the past in your issues?  Can you see the past and predict the future? Any place along the scan you can find places where it could have been different and maybe now could be different. Just ask. That is what the present serves as, the place of awareness. Choose one and see what happens when you offer potential, love, gratitude, fun, silly, non attachment, whatever you feel is wanted. Allow your awareness, not mind, to come into play and engage. Feel the shift in some way. Make it real.

 

If there is no one to pass our story on to will we be forgotten? Does it matter? It is important to the living to know they have made a difference in being. Does it matter anywhere else? It that part of your story? There is no right, no wrong answers.

 

There is only your story, your voice. 

Love,

janet